Q Strange - Eternal Bliss lyrics

(Chorus) x3
happiness is all I want but I am trapped by misery
and no one understands or even cares if I just live or die
there is only one way out and I am not afraid to take it
it's the only way I see is suicide

verse

this kids mom died when he was just 15
left with his pops but pops was a dopefiend
who didn't give a fuck about him
he even thinks that he'd be better off without him
he goes to school with no friends in his mad poor
he misses his mom even though she was a crack whore
comes through the back door so dad wont see
cause after school at 3 he gets greeted with a beatin
he has to go around with no smelly cloths and no socks
well other kids rock nikeys and rebock
he's not
happy with his miserable existence
sometimes he has the urge to just say good riddance
grew up around drugs but never thought about tryin it
tried not to become a product of his environment
he tried to sit and talk to his pillow like a psychologist
screaming into it why did she have to die
mom was in a program to get off the stuff
I guess she wasn't ready or strong enough
But if she was alive that wouldn't be good either
Cause dad use to beat her everyday and miss treat her
He hates his father but its all he has left
He doesn't want to live but he's afraid of death
But maybe he thinks that he'd be better off dead
He grabbed the paper and a pen wrote a note and it said

(chorus)x3

he feels a little nervous cause he doesn't no what method
would be the best to end it
he's startin to cry now
time out
he wants to just think it though
life stinks its true
but theres gotta be a better way
a better day might come but it aint likely
it's a constant battle in this life it fights me
he thinks that he's a coward when in fact he's real brave
never gave into temptations that put his mother in the grave
he wants to be saved but no one hears his cry's for help
except for god in heaven still he wants to kill himself
he wasn't brought up to know about god and the bible
his whole short life has been nothing but survival
suicidal thoughts invading his young mind
sunshine is somethin he aint seen in a long time
he cant take the loneliness and the sadness
goes in the other room and gives his dad a kiss
even though he's passed out from the drugs
its still all he has so in a way he still loves him
he wants to join his mom in eternal bliss
got in the bathtub and sliced his wrists
and as he watched the blood pour out of his veins and down the drain
he said goodbye to the pain
(sobbing)
(chorus)x4

(talking) theres help
you can get help
theres somebody you can talk to
theres hope
(chorus)x2